The Super Cool Awesome Super Blog (or something)

Mood: Hopeful

Watching: Welcome to Derry

Drinking: Sleep Tea

Ear Worm: Brighter - Hazbin Hotel

https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=RDDIGsCwz0mMA&v=DIGsCwz0mMA

I purposely didn't do titles on my previous blog because as you can see, I very much suck at them >_>

But that blog was HTML, which somehow felt a lot easier to customise and mess around with than using Wix is.

But I'm sure I'll get the hang of it eventually!

Although this one has spell check, which is nice - the amount of times I'd proofread a post several times and still not see a mistake until after posting is ridiculous!

..although, weirdly as I write this, it also feels less.. intuitive?

I'm not sure how to describe it.

I felt like I was more typing how I talk/think

(y'know, that good ol' internal monologue)

with my html blog and the complete over use of italic and bold felt natural (probably because typing <b> takes less than a second, where as on here currently..

I have to go and look for the button to make text bold and my thoughts in my head are sounding very monotone whilst I do so, and it's sort of killing the (albeit chaotic) flow.)

Anywho, I'm rambling.

So, why.. this gestures vaguely - .... let's try that again

gestures vaguely

..... ok so apparently using asterisks makes text italic, and using double makes it bold.

This would be fine, if I wasn't an MSN teenager in the 00s and never really moved past it so

HOW DARE YOU, I NEEDED THAT ;-;

Le cough.

Anyway.

There's an option to use HTML so I'm tempted to use that to see if I can write the entire blog with it so it's just like my old one.

But for now we'll try using... erm... //looks at keyboard//

...Yeah ok,

we'll use // for the time being.

Sure, arguably I could just be a grown up and use my big girl words and not faff around with italics and bolds and... actions?

I don't even know.

But I'm 36 in just over a month and I still haven't grown out of it, so I wouldn't hold up hope.

(Plus that would kinda defeat the point - this is supposed to be my brain's little playground to ramble and be my weird little goblin self without disturbing anyone, doesn't really work if I start forcing myself to do the whole.. adulting.. thing).

But yeah, let's try that again.

AHEM.

So, why... this //gestures vaguely// ?

(Excellent, 10/10)

As I already mentioned on my Welcome page and not so subtly implied here already, 2000s internet was pretty peak and I am nostalgic as fook.

I absolutely loved social media being used as a form of creative expression - myspace, vampirefreaks, angelfire, a load of others that I can't even remember the names of anymore, you get my drift.

Point is, you signed up to get your space and you could make it yours. Like decorating a bedroom (I was never allowed to decorate my bedroom growing up, maybe that's where this stems from >_> (it probably isn't)).

Now we have.... Facebook.

Sure, you can set your cover photo and put a short Bio, but everything else is set in stone.

People are cattle (sorry, I've been back in my Attack on Titan phase recently so "THESE WALLS? A PEN. HUMANITY? CATTLE" runs through my mind at REALLY inappropriate times. Thanks a bunch, Armin).

I miss going on a profile and being able to get an idea of who a person is, what they love etc, just by what they've done with their space.Now we have facebook, and everything else just kind of faded out and died.

(And it's not just the social media, I used to love Forums but they're all obsolete now too - but that's a rant for another day).

AND SO

I was absolutely thrilled to find Spacehey (a myspace copycat) and Neocities (another angelfire type thing), as you can imagine.

great yay happy ending wooo

Yeah. No.

UK internet safety ban thingy-ma-jiggy.

Can't access Spacehey anymore without using a proxy, and imgur no longer works for the UK without using a proxy either - so although I can still technically use neocities...

.. it's an ugly pile of ugly because I used imgur for all my image hosting so it's an absolute shambles and kinda ruined.

̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶u̶n̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶l̶i̶f̶e̶

(i'm kidding, i'm fine, shh)

So yeah.I thought.. //looks both ways//

...so I thought //clears throat// fuck it

and now here I am,desperately clinging to that last little bit of nostalgia.

...SO ANYWAY

What will I do with this space? ... have been doing.. are doing...

... am doing?

Eh.

Aside from posting my useless rambles that should probably have stayed inside thoughts,

I like to have an online place to put my "to do list".

What is the to-do list?

(aside from the obvious, obviously)

I've never really liked New Years Resolutions.Like.. sure, if that's your jam.

But it feels like unnecessary pressure, y'know?

And so often, when someone fails it or falls off the wagon once, they decide it was a waste of time and stop trying.

So, I personally prefer to make myself a list of very achievable targets.

If I hit one, I cross it off the list.

If it's something like "do more drawings", I'll start with 5, and if I do five I'll cross that one off and put a new one underneath it to do 10.

I don't expect to cross everything off the list and I don't even push myself to attempt it - I just refer back to it sometimes to remind myself.I could of course just do that in a note book or something,

but for starters, it would get messy.

And I can't insert a new line under my "do five drawings" to put in a "do ten" when I finish five.

I could arguably write the.. stage 2.. target in advance, but I don't want too many not crossed off either!

(I also can't link to said drawings as proof >_> )

I could write "do ten" at the bottom of the list after I complete five, but.. that just feels wrong too, presentation wise...

I'd also absolutely forget about it in a note book, or lose the note book, or spill tea on the page eventually.

Nah.

So here I am!

(yayyy)

I'll also be posting my cosplays and probably (possibly, maybe, eventually?) my drawings here

....and any other hobbies that I end up indulging in frequent enough for it to get it's own space >_>

But yes, if you're curious about my old blogs...

well, there aren't many.

I'm ̶s̶h̶i̶t̶ not very good at remembering to do so (and have little to write about most of the time).

But you can find my (now abandoned indefinitely) Neocities blog here: https://pixiesroom.neocities.org/ramblings

As you can see (unless you're reading this years from now and I happen to have "redecorated" in that time),

I pretty much just copied everything straight over >_>

But yeah.

Hi.